someone i hate added me in facebook!!! arghh~ anyway, i'm ignoring the add and messages i received from this person. think i need to be forgiving...haiz...but i don't know why i can't just forgive this person...anyway, i don't want to be in contact with this person also lar...

yesterday, i find myself very happy...think it's been a long long time since i last went out for breakfast with my family. although mummy woke me up at 9am on a sunday morning, i didn't grumble but got out of bed and accompany them for breakfast in chinatown. and we even went to a temple for a visit since it's nearby and went to those traditional wedding shop to take a look. hehe...was a fun morning... =D i used to find such mornings a bore since i want to sleep more on a sunday morning and it's normally just breakfast. but i'm beginning to enjoy it and wish every sunday mornings are like this and better if dear dear will join me in future. =D and in the evening, went to ah ma's shop in amk to fetch her and dinner. it's another thing i find it a bore in the past. cos it's all the way from bt panjang to amk lar...so far just to eat dinner and send ah ma home and then back home again. but then again, i was happy doing it yesterday. =D hehe...think i'm beginning to treasure my family (after so many years of living together) since i know i wouldn't be able to spend just enough time with them after i'm married. i'm guilty of feeling so, but i think it's never too late. =)

i caught the F1 race on tv yesterday! cool~ =) i never watch a complete F1 race on tv before but i did it yesterday with my family. hehe...i never find it interesting at all until yesterday with my family members sitting in the living room watching and commenting on it. fun night....but our expected winner, L.Hamilton didn't win...haizz....

today is a monday but it may not be as blue as usual...hehe...cos wednesday is a HOLIDAY!!! great~ =D work 2 days then 1 day off, and then work another 2 more days, and it's WEEKEND!!! yipee~ and dear dear called me early today...hehe...my drug for the day... =D missing him so so so so .........................MUCH!!!

82 more days...........tomorrow shall be the mark of his 1month away....why is time crawling so slowly???!!!!

memories of my days in secondary sch band kept replaying in my mind....i miss band days!!! we played the tracks from ABBA gold in band practice and it's one of my favourite pieces....wonder if there's any alumni band practice...hahahaha....have the sudden urge to go back visit band...but don't know if teacher still recognises me...hehe...but i miss my euphonium!!! 

anyway, the movie is about a girl wanting to find her dad to walk her down the aisle during her wedding day. but the problem is, she doesn't know who is her dad so she invited all her mum's ex-bfs to her wedding instead...hahaha....just love the tracks played to link the whole movie...if there's a musical showing in the theatres, i don't mind going to watch it sia...

also, the girl in the movie is soooo pretty too...wonder why those ang mohs can carry out their simple wedding gowns so perfectly without much makeup...and their wedding concept is so simple and nice too....envy~

*yawn* having a flu now...think i lack of sleep.

last night, we had food tasting at four seasons hotel. the food was so-so nia...not very fantastic. but the ballroom is niceeee....there was a wedding going on yesterday night, so, we went to peep at the settings. it was cool~ my favourite theme...black Black BLACK!!! black and maroon is soooo nice...with dark red roses as the table settings and a candle on each table with the cozy settings of the ballroom. PERFECT~ hopefully my grand copthorne don't disappoint me next year. hehe...the bride loves the black and maroon theme also....so i hope our wedding wouldn't be too similar...cos both of us have same taste to the theme and gowns and our bridal studio is the same... (-_-)" anyway, just hope new themes and gowns are available by then we do our selection...else, it wouldn't be refreshing le since most guests are the same...

later tonight, i'll be meeting the One Big Family for movie!!! long time no watch movie liao...but i think i going home nap awhile first and i'm also thinking if i should go down to bugis to get this dinner dress later...hmm....cos i only saw 1 piece left there, don't know will it be sold out again like the previous time i went. haiz...

i think my brain isn't functioning well for now. i've been staring at my customer's emails for so long and i've only type 2 words. "dear sir/mdm..." that's all...hahaha...maybe i should go toilet wash my face to refresh myself alittle.

84 days more....patiently waiting for his return...missing him~

OMG!!! got lizard in my office!!!! and i spotted it at boss table area which is near mine.....now, i got no mood work liao....my eyes are all over the place trying to spot any sign of dark movements around my desk just in case it's a lizard near me and i've got time to react...hahaha....

lastly, HAPPY 5th ANNIVERSARY DEAR DEAR!!!

tomorrow is our 5th anniversary....hahahahaha....we've got 2 anniversary dates cos 1 is acknowledged by dear dear while the other by me....kept arguing over it in the past, so we decided to set both dates as our anniversaries...wahahaha.....so can celebrate 2 times... =p doubt dear dear will give me surprise call at midnight le... =( just now he told me he won't be calling cos he's very tired and wished me in advance liao....hmmmm...

just got back from dinner with mummy-in-law... =D hehe...first time having dinner with her one-to-one...wasn't that bad...had non-stop topics to talk about...hahaha...

so here i am in serangoon...just now i brought mummy-in-law to cotton on to shop...hahaha... =p i think she shops just like my mummy...hehe...pattern all the same de...see clothes also see the same kind. i felt like i'm shopping with my own mummy...hehe...i think i'm blessed to be able to get along with my in-laws...hope things remains as it is... =)

guess what!!! =D *smiles* finally got a letter from hdb...managed to get a full grant for our love nest!!! yipee~ but still need some planning..cos i don't want to be financially strained in future.. =) hehe...can't wait to tell dear dear the good news...*hops around*

*prays hard dear dear calls. wish to hear his voice... =p

*yawn* reached office super early today. was even in office before 8am cos there wasn't any jam on the way which means i've got lesser time to nap in dad's car... =(

tonight, i've got my last 2nd piano class and after that i'm meeting mummy-in-law for dinner cum chit chat session. guess i'll be heading to serangoon tonight liao.

anyway, some pics which are long overdue.. =p thanks suping for the pics...hehe...i didn't realise it's in my folder until this morning...hahahaha...

monday blues~

didn't want to come to work this morning cos my stomach is still painful....but no choice...dragged myself out of bed and took medicine before coming to work.

after the whole food poisoning ordeal, my stomach has been churning all the time. keep on having those gastric juices and air mixing like a washing machine. till now still like this and best part, of all times, my most hated period of the month came together and it's like so much earlier than expected lar. shitty feeling...

till today, i think i'm still eating junk food. i still can't finish 1 full meal though. always bits and pieces here and there. on friday, i thought after eating my home made burger for breakfast, i'm fine. but...it gave me the puking feeling again the whole day but luckily didn't puke. else, i think i'll be in hospital on drip by now. hahaha....my colleagues told me they found out the root problem of this cos they also having diarrhea on fri after drinking office water. so they said it's the office water dispenser and not the nutri tea. haizz....

over my weekend, i think i also not much mood to go out. only went out on sat for threading with suping and swimming at serangoon hoping that i'll feel better after an exercise. that's all. after that is dinner nearby and home sweet home at dear's place. and sunday was laying in bed the whole day till evening went granny's place awhile to celebrate cousin chloe and cheryl's birthday....really cute lar cheryl. took some pics of it, will upload once i'm home. =)

89 days more... =( sob

HAPPY 5TH ANNIVERSARY DEAR DEAR!!!!

dilemma....

just did a shitty job awhile ago...i just got myself another position in the company as a manager when i'm just an assistant manager. shitty~ pretty cock up and i think i'll have an identity crisis soon if i keep changing my position name just to suit whatever is required for me to have some forms filled up or handle certain things on behalf of boss...arghh~

haiz...it's a countdown to my piano exam....2 days more...sian...
had my last piano lesson before exam and i faired very very very BADLY....even teacher laughed and asked me, 'are you going in to smile at your examiner and say bye-bye?' i was like 'YA'...hahaha....i totally cannot make it lar....i was very tired by then i got to class and i forced myself to practise for an hour before i slept last night. terrible feeling...no concentration....passing rate, 0%..... =(

94 days more....it's crawling so slowly lar.....

i'm starting to worry about this friday's piano exam... =( i didn't felt a thing last week but i'm starting to feel the urgency again today as i practise my piano awhile ago...i totally cannot make it...all along i know i will fail, but i just don't want to fail too badly...it doesn't reflect well on me nevermind, i think i'll be ruining my teacher's reputation too...haizz....sian...i've been thinking if i should just hack care the exam and give it a miss...but i know i'll be letting many people down...friends have been telling me to give it a try no matter what, no try you never know, that's what they say.... =( BUT i'm afraid to know the results after trying....i wish the results slip will never be return to me if i fail....if i pass, of cause it'll be a MIRACLE....but then, it'll never happen larz...so i don't pin any hope for it...as long as don't get below 90??? btw, total score is 150...to pass, i need to get at least 100...for the past few attempts, i've been getting 98 and 97...so sickening....to score distinction, need at least 130 and for merit it's at least 120....so far, all just pass....which makes me a super duper lousy pianist...haizz...

*yawn* tired morning...

was woken up many times last night by my upstairs neighbour. they either kept dropping things on the floor with a loud bang or they are slamming or banging their door loudly in the MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT!!! siao lar...the whole night was a bazaar...

12+am, woke up by a loud bang like people slamming things on the floor by purpose....
1+am, i heard another thud but not so loud...
then at 3+am, i woke up from a nightmare where i had a big fight with somebody...
5+am, woke up by a knock that sounds like someone is knocking at my door loudly....

thinking back now, it sounds creepy...but i was too tired last night to even think of that...luckily...else, i think i'll be a walking zombie today...haha...

weekend updates:

it was a boring day in office on a saturday morning and something made me very pissed that day larz...i'm suppose to work from 9am-1pm on saturday....and everything was peaceful through out. there wasn't much phone calls through out....until, dear dear called me at 12.55pm which is just 5mins more and it's time to knock off....a customer just had to call at around 12.57pm larz....SHITTY~ then i had to tell dear dear to call me back which he only called me at around 7+pm. nvm lar....customer call and she just ask me 1 question, your office address is blah Blah BLAH right? i was like (-____-)" WTH~ you know liao you still ask...felt so pissed at that time...but of cause, i know it's my bad lar....office hour and i'm talking to dear...but But BUT it's 12.57pm larz....arghhh....so suay...hrmp~

after work, met up with chunbing in town for lunch and shopping...=) after that, met up with yiling and josephine in the evening around 6pm. continued shopping again...hahaha...surprisingly, i manage to prevent myself from buying anything... =D we shopped till 9pm then we went to dear's house to continue chatting till around 4am...haha...by then, my eyes already 3/4 close... =p

on sunday, stayed in serangoon the whole morning and noon to accompany mummy-in-law...hehe....i'm surprise she can be so chatty too...hehe...

suppose to go chinese garden in the evening with the 1 big family de...but majority couldn't make it, so it was cancelled and i went granny's place instead. feel really guilty that i've not been there for so long...and i was so pai seh when my aunt ask me how come today so free to come arz.... =p think i'll make an effort to go there more often...

just got home from leong's  birthday celebration...had a funny night..hahaha...at first, we wanted to go to timbre de...but it was 10+pm by then we met and the queue was damn damn long lar...no reservations can be made by then...haiz...so changed location...

i want to COMPLAIN~~~~~

early morning, i'm task with something i've got totally no idea...shitty~
my company has been hiring lotsa foreigners recently lar....and best part, hire so many liao, still don't know how to apply employment passes for them...and what happens????

"oh.....dear ah pearl can do it de....tell her go google it lor...anything don't know, ask her...anything don't know how to fill up, ask her..."

WTH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can easily change position names in order to get some documents sign for approval de larz....cos boss is busy and things need to be done fast...till date, i'm totally clueless on my job scope cos it just keeps changing...i can be handling the accounts for now but later on, i'm asked to do other things with no relations to accounts/billings....i know i'll learn lotsa things this way, but.......if they want to frame me or what (not that i'm saying they will lar), they can easily do it lor...

arghh~ that's why i'm thinking of changing jobs....but i need my leaves, so i'm staying put for now and bare with all these till middle next year...

btw, did i ever mention that i need to give 3 months notice if i want to leave the company??? it's not stated in my employment letter lor....i find it so unfair...sadz....3 months notice how to find a new job ar....who want to wait for me to complete these 3 months arz....sianz....i hate my job...

i'm tired..........i want to sleep, but i'm afraid i'll be wasting time sleeping again if i don't get quality sleep... =( *yawnz* still waiting for dear dear's call...a call to the country he's in cost $5/min lar...madness...i tried faxing him a document just now and singtel told me, "oh, the charges are at $6 per block of 3mins"....wth~ somemore cannot get through the line, wonder will they charge me for it...haizz...

OMG OMG~!!!! dear dear finally replied my email...hehe....ok, i know there's nothing much to be happy about since he calls me everyday.....but....my dear dear doesn't email me de mahz...it's like once in a blue moon larz....that's why, i always keep his emails in my mailboxes even though it's like damn lame and short email forwards...hahaha... =D his email sure cheered me up on a tired morning like today.

wonder what's wrong with me these days lar....super duper tired but i still wake up in the middle of the night lor....after i've brought back my com, i've been blogging before i sleep...but....recently, i on le, blog le, then i fell asleep without switching off my com larz....and somemore, yesterday, i on le, i fell asleep without blogging!!! (-_-)" my eye rings are getting darker and darker....haizz....

this morning, felt really guilty sia...normally dad will fetch mummy to the bus stop outside np to take a bus to office, then fetch me to work and then go to work himself....if i'm not around, he'll directly fetch mummy to work and then go work himself. so, today, there was a long long jam from dairy farm all the way to upper bukit timah road and up to clementi towards aye and because of this, mummy and dad are late for work.... =S so guilty...the only person not late is me...sorry mummy and dad...i've told them i'm big enough to go work myself, but they just want to send me to work...i think that's a way my parents dote on me....thanks mummy and dad... =)

boring wednesday in office...
back from lunch and i'm feeling sleep now... *yawn*

i think i need my energy booster....else, i'll fall asleep soon...zzzzzz.........

it's a tuesday...so here i am, blogging from dear dear's computer in serangoon...will be spending my tuesday nights in serangoon as well as one of my weekend night to accompany mummy-in-law...

today, i did an interview for an admin position on behalf of boss...hehe...i think i totally sux at it cos i've got really no idea what to ask lar...and somemore, it's so last minute...15mins before the interviewee arrive, she called and boss wasn't back until at least 45mins later lar...so he told me to standby for him...but less than maybe 5mins through, i'm stuck...nothing else to ask...hahaha... =p

recently, office has been actively trying to recruit new staffs..and we're getting 3 new staffs from the philipines to join us this month...hopefully there wouldn't be much staff shuffling after all these...kinda sick of all those leaving and joining process....i've seen so many people come and go in this company and i'm still stuck here larz....sian....have already reach the 4th yr le and i'm still here...haizz....ok, enough of office stuffs...it's so boring...

finally terminated my piano classes....and this month shalll be the last month... =) i think i've really wasted lots of money on it since i started classes again after i started work. so it's time i stop wasting my money and save it up for emergency...no time and energy to go practise all the time lar....haiz...and somemore next friday exam...sian...don't even have the exam feeling anymore...1 more class to go before exam... =S

102 days more...
*still waiting for dear's call*

finally~!!! the pics taken on the day dear sailed...thanks yiling and leong for lending me your camera... =D looking at the pics makes me miss dear even more actually...hahaha... =p but i still want to look at it...hehe

had lotsa fun chit chatting with my galz tonight...wonder when we'll have such a gathering again...anyway, it'll be another 1.5 months before we can see suling gal again....good luck for your slimming program gal...jia you...you can de... =D

oops~ forgot to say.........

so later today, i'll be having steamboat with my galz.... =) 

i'm back at serangoon...
dear dear....i miss you so much...you never call me today...sobsob~ and now that i'm back at your place, i feel so empty...everything is so neat and tidy in your room...everything left untouch after my packing last sunday...i think your sis is right, when i come serangoon, i'll miss you even more and have the tendency to cry...and damn it...she strike on...i'm sobbing now...i wish i'm stronger...haizz...

to cheer myself up alittle, i'm $2k poorer... =( ok, not much to be happy about with lesser money...but the thing is..................i manage to get my ideal flat so i paid $2k deposit to reserve it...so yap, we're getting our love nest in maybe another 3-4yrs time!!! =D dear dear...i want to quickly share this news with you, can you pls pls pls call me.....................i thought by then our turn for selection, all the flats will be taken, but luckily, still left only 2 of such units lar....real lucky...it was between level 14 and 9...in the end, we chose level 9 cos mummy-in-law says 14 don't sounds good and mummy also said the same thing...

so, after paying this, it means our debts are piling up...shit~ need to really budget on things we spend on le...arghh~ hate that feeling...i want to be debt free..........................

first thing first, Happy Birthday Chunbing....you're finally 1 yr older...wahahaha...don't laugh at me liao hor....you're also 24 liao...bleah~ cya on sunday for your celebration...hehe...

this morning, i was playing with my phone's camera and i almost got a heart attack larz.....the phone prompt me that my memory is FULL and i can't launch the camera....WTH~ siao liao lor....now camera phone also wana spoil mehz....my hp has 16GB internal memory plus a 1GB mini SD card lar...how can full when i didn't load much stuffs...haizz...

immediately went to google the error number, and the forum states i have to do a soft reset....i was thinking, siao liao....the past few days of configuring my hp numbers in my phone will be gone if i reset...so i restarted the phone instead, and to my relief, it's working fine after that...phew~ scare me...

anyway, i'm on half day leave today cos the stupid flat selection is at such a weird timing lar...after work still got to rush down in cab i guess, else, i think i'll be late. argh~ hopefully dear dear gets to call me when i'm doing the selection, else, i'll be so helpless....

dear dear...call me at 2pm k? i need your energy booster.... =D

today i didn't make appointment for my facial. was too lazy and also i had the sudden urge to go back practise piano...i think i play damn badly lar...wonder how i'm going to go for exam like this...arghh~ stress.......


on top of that, i've got a busy weekend ahead...doubt i'll have time to touch my piano again...won't be home again till sunday morning...

Friday :
- HDB selection appointment at 2pm following that, shopping with mummy-in-law


Saturday :
- 11.15am till 12pm bring dear dear's niece to ballet class
- 1pm bridesmaid dress fitting
- 3pm meet friends for present shopping
- 7pm dear's family dinner with future in-laws
- after dinner, meet up with the same group of friends again for some "celebration"


Sunday :
- finally...dedicated to my 'sisters'... =) steamboat at my house...


dear dear called me at 11+am today... =D as usual, ALL SMILES =D
i was telling ray just now that actually i've got alot of things to look forward to till dear is back, and all these things seem so near and is coming soon, but then, dear dear coming home is like damn far away...


- 5/9 HDB Selection
- 19/9 piano exam
- 26/9 food tasting with dear's family
- 13/10 suling's filming
- 30/10 wedding to attend
- 13/12 bro's 21st birthday celebration
- 14/12 birth of yiling's baby
- 20/12 dear dear is back!!!! =D


so many things to keep me occupied.
so ray concluded that the rest are all chores except for the 20th dec...hahahaha...you maybe right man...but still there are a few days out of those listed that i'm really looking forward to larz...hahaha...

how i wish your temp absence is a bad dream. missing you badly...
107 days to go...sob~ so long so long...i'm going crazy just missing you...

tired~

a short entry before i sleep...

i havent gotten my drug for the day!!! =(
was looking through my friendster and found our pic in mingli's profile. thanks man for uploading..hehe...but i want the pic taken on the 30th aug...hahaha... (ok, i'm talking to myself, cos he doesn't know my blog address...wahahaha... =p)

was checking out hdb website just now. goodness me...practically all the units from level 9 onwards for those blocks near mrt is already taken up!!! haizz....and those units that i like with toilet just like my current house is almost gone too...left with only 5 units. chances are, we may not get the flat...i'm like losing interest in it liao. haiz...

piano exam is 16 days away!!! arghh~ starting to feel the pressure....i just want to give up...i don't want to go for it liao...so sian...cos i bound to fail... =( even the cost of the exam isn't making me feel like i should go for it....how how how??? haizz....

i want my energy booster......where are you??? what are you doing??? =(

108 days more....
(had some miscalculation earlier... =p how i wish i miscalculated more so the no. of days gets lesser..hehe...)

after that when i was on my way to the bus stop to take bus, dear dear called!!!! =D *smilez* 

all smiles~ i got my energy booster for the day awhile ago... =D muackx~

was complaining to him about office just now. my company really like "no-government" lar...they come in late without any explanation, and when phone rings, nobody bothers to pick up the phone except for my most hardworking female colleague. wth~ what's wrong with the company larz...i see staffs reading newspapers while there are still pending support tickets in the system. what is this man...argh~

he finally called me for the day!!! =D super happy to receive his call...the moment i heard my initial D ringtone ring, i dashed out of office to pick up his call...hehe...

he told me that he queued 2hrs for the phone...goodness me...when my dear became so hardworking to queue for something??? although it's a short 3mins call, i really appreciate the time spent on queuing...muackx~ love you my dear...your call brighten my day... =D

dear dear...morning...muack~

i just got to office only...wonder what's the time difference now since you're on board. how's things for you now? getting used to it? is it boring on board? are you sleeping well?

you know, i so don't feel like coming to work today...for the past whole week, i woke up seeing you by my bedside every morning and i get to hug and kiss you before i leave for work. but in just a blink, you're off for your overseas deployment and i don't get to see you by my bedside. sob~ had to drag myself out of bed this morning knowing that a full day of work is waiting for me in office since i had 4 straight days of half day last week. sianz~ but on the other hand, i also hope work can help me take off the emptiness for the day and night, i'll just go home and think about you till i fall asleep.

will you be calling me today? i'm so afraid that when you call me, i maybe somewhere out of any phone signal or something....my hp has been sticking on to me everywhere i go so i hope i won't miss any of your calls... =)

today, i don't have any plans...i'll be going home straight after work. don't feel like going anywhere...