that's all the pics so far...took some pics yesterday when sending dear off...will try to upload that once i've gotten it from our friend...  =)

*warning: this is going to be a lengthy entry about me missing dear...and i guess, subsequent entries will be all about him until he's back 113days later.

today is the day i don't look forward to...dear dear's start of his 113 days trip away. SOB~ last night, although i was super duper tired, i still woke up at 5am in the morning to prepare dear's stuff and when there's still time, i just stared blankly at him sleeping...how i wish he doesn't need to go... =(

left for his camp early this morning and reached by 7.30am. although i was smiling all the while, i know my heart is tearing badly...but, i don't want to embarrass dear dear by crying. so i tried swallowing my saliva each time i know my tears are coming out. at that point of time when dear's mummy cried when dear receive his singapore flag, i also had the urge to cry...but so many people...need to endure...everything went smoothly without me crying, until...........dear dear's LAST hug to me before he board the ship...........SOB SOB SOB~ i stole a few moments to tear alittle...i just didn't want to let go of him lar...but of cause, he had to go...so i said my 'good-bye' to him and gave him a little peck on his lips and i stared at his back view as he boarded his ship... =( super reluctant...

when his ship slip off, that's the worse part....i don't know how many times i swallowed my saliva to prevent my tears from falling which his friends predicted i will... =S i hate to see such scenarios lor...why must they make it so big and make the whole leaving process so long....sob...make me so sad...and stupid dj don't know how to play livelier songs mehz??? play those sad sad songs... =( only contribute to my heavy heart nia...i can tell you, my chest hurts with all those controlling...i just want to cry out loud...

after dear left, i went out with our friends for lunch and out shopping. thanks guys for accompanying me...had fun and it sure took my mind off dear's departure for awhile...but whenever i'm alone, i just can't help but think of dear again. sob~ was crying in my heart but smiling on the outside...bitter feeling...

just when i was in the noisiest place cum a low batt, i received dear's phone call!!!!! i was so damn happy larz!!! all smiles~ but also, i nearly burst into tears as well....i wanted to tell dear how much i miss him although it's like a few hours of separation for now nia...but the place and time didn't allow me to talk to him much, i think the call lasted for only a minute plus and dear says he has got to go and will call me again when the phone is available. sob~ dear dear....i want to hear your voice again....can call me everyday???? sob~ i know it's kinda hard or maybe impossible to call me everyday lar...but try k? no matter what time or where i am, i'll definitely pick up your call...muack~

after the call, definitely my spirits lifted alittle. =) but it got duller and duller when night falls when i'm all alone....as it's too late plus i'm very tired, i decided to stay at dear's place tonight and go home tomorrow morning...and the moment i stepped into dear's house, i just burst out crying...and till now, i'm still tearing, wetting dear's pillow with my tears..SOB~ i hope i'll get use to dear's temporary absence soon....else, i think by then dear is back, i'll be wearing thicker specs with all those crying going on.... =(

*dear dear...if you're reading this, please check your hotmail everyday k? i'll drop you emails...

so fast it's friday!!! tomorrow dear dear will be sailing off liao!!!SOBSOBSOBSOBSOBSOB~ i so scared i'll cry tomorrow when i send him off...he warn me not to cry le...but how to keep my tears from falling....sob...haiz...in less than 24hours, i'll be in his camp waving good-bye to him...so sad...3months 3weeks of independence...which i hate to be. and i wouldn't be looking forward to my weekends le...sob...

dear dear....i will miss you so so much...must take good care of yourself wor...don't anyhow wonder around without any of your friends. i will take good care of myself too...so don't worry... =)

yesterday, it was really sweet of dear to accompany me to the comex fair in suntec...thanks dear~ i know you hate to go to crowded places and not to say a place where a stampit can happen anytime...muackx~ and also, he accompanied me to have steamboat in bugis..hehe...got craving to eat so we went although he was super reluctant... =p thanks dear~ muackx muackx muackx~

btw, i got a 8GB micro SD card during the fair...it's super cheap lar...i got my 2GB micro SD card for $40 outside lor...there, 2GB only $12!!! with an extra card, i'm preparing to give dear my 2GB card so that he can store songs and of cause, OUR PHOTOS in his hp!!! hehe... =p

later, we're heading to tampines mall shopping and to marina square to watch Wall.E...

have been rather lazy to transfer my pics to the com...hehe...i'll try upload some pics soon... =D

tired tired tired~ yesterday was my first half day leave of the week and i'm super duper shag liao...didn't want to waste any time with dear dear, so i tried to fully maximise my half day leave and only went home at 12+am...

07:40am - left for work from serangoon

01:05pm - took cab from office and head to beach road (army market) to meet dear and his friends

02:30pm - took cab again from beach road to parkway parade for some will thingy

03:30pm - took cab Again from parkway parade this time, to plaza singapura for my piano

05:00pm - piano class till 6pm

06:15pm - left PS for river view hotel for dinner with dear's godma

09:15pm - left river view hotel for tampines mall for movie with yanjie and suping by cab AGAIN

11:50pm - finish movie and yanjie drove us home....

12:15am - reach home

12:30am - sleep..zzzzzzzzz

i think we spent almost $70 on cab yesterday lor....cos dear dear also took cab from his home to beach road earlier in the noon. super high expenditure yesterday. but what to do....haiz...cos he's leaving, time is precious...no matter how tired, i must endure...

today, i think my schedule is not that pack. only meeting his godpa in the evening for dinner and prawning... =) so i think i can go back catch a short nap in the noon.

both his godma and godpa so cute larz...his godma says she'll ask me out for meals then dear dear not around so that i won't feel bored...then his godpa says he'll want to ask me out for prawning sessions when dear's not around too...haha...btw, both his godpa and godma are not related...but i find it so sweet of them as well as all my friends who offer to accompany me when dear dear not around...thanks manz...really appreciate that... =)

beginning september till 19th, i think i'll be trying very hard to concentrate on my piano practices...haizz...i'm really way way behind time for my piano...think i'll fail damn badly this time...and i've yet to terminate my piano classes yet. =(

while on the 5th sept, i'll be going for my house selection, and i've yet to prepare all the necessary documents with dear....time is running out to settle all these...plus, i've yet to help dear load games into his psp....haiz...and i need to do a bank loan for our housing...and i've now done that either..gosh~ not that i'm typing this, more and more things i realise i've not done and all these need dear's signature. die liao larz....haiz...

3 days more nia...buck up pearl ah pearl...gambateh!!!

i've finally gotten my new phone...was really happy about it until this morning... =( so sad~ dear dear says no camera phone is allowed in camp...but camera can bring in if it's registered... (-_-)" hello~ what's the difference between a camera and a camera phone? that means that day everyone cannot bring hp that day ar? everyone who wants to go in and stay contactable needs to bring a SAF phone si bo? sobsob...so sad....dear dear is leaving for this stupid sailing is sad enough le...and now, i cannot use my camera phone to take pics with it...if i know, i won't insist on buying the phone so soon lar....i would have just gone to buy another camera lar.....arghh~


anyway, i bought the samsung omnia instead of iphone. cos the camera is 5 mega pixels...but now, haiz.........it doesn't matter liao...i can't bring that on that day...sob~ spoiler of the day...or in fact the week~ =(


on a happier note, tomorrow till friday's half day leave has been approved....and i can pei dear dear through out. and fri we're going to catch the movie Wall-e...free tickets from starhub given by boss... =)

over the weekend, met up with our same usual group of friends for dinner for 2 consecutive days...sat and sun...went to eat uncle leong on sat after so long....and after that, headed to this club called 'lunar' in clarke quay...and i saw this jvcb junior there lar...couldn't even recognise my junior and she had to tell me she's my junior when she was permitting us to enter the club...hahaha....so embarrassing.. =p too bad i didn't have any camera that day, it was some eason chen's thingy there....

then on sun, went bridal shopping the whole noon...was kinda fun..hehe...except for the stupid weather...it actually rained the whole time we're there lor...after that then we headed to the seafood international market place and restaurant in east coast...nice place...took some pics using my phone, shall upload it once i'm back in serangoon... =)

fri, so wanted to go watch fireworks with dear de...but haiz...he had to go to some wake...and i ended up meeting suling for the night for some catching up session. for the past 2 yrs, we went for the fireworks display, but not this year...haiz....

tired morning~ didn't have enough sleep...was doing up my small photo album for dear to bring along during his upcoming trip last night... =) so glad it's finally completed...hehe...just have to remember to pass it to dear before he leaves...and that's less than 10 days from now....sobsob... =(

was reading through my emails this morning and i saw singtel's email on iphone. i don't know why suddenly i don't have that excited feeling anymore...when i first learn about its launch date, i was like freaking happy....but now, it's launching tomorrow, and i don't have the keen feeling of buying it after browsing through all the specs and stuffs. i'm thinking, do i need the use of the internet on my mobile? do i need so many functions? i also don't know how to convince myself that i won't be wasting dear's money... =( if i'm going to use my current mobile plan, it's going to cost $698, if i upgrade, it's like $348....dilemma....haizz....i know i need a hp, but i don't know if i'll be utilising its functions. how how how???

reasons on why i want the phone:
- no laptop, so can surf net using it when i'm outside
- mp3/mp4 function
- calling n sms-ing of cause

reasons why i'm re-considering it:
- i've got my ds lite le, do i need so much entertainment when i'm out?
- $698 one-time vs $348 one-time plus additional $20/mth for my mobile subscription, worth it?
- heard alot of problems with the phone

3 vs 3 reasons....how how how???

iphone aside, on tuesday, went for interviews....i realise it's exactly 4yrs ago on the 19th aug i graduated from ngee ann lor cos my dip cert is stated as 19th aug 04...hahaha...so, interview in ntu seems ok....but i don't have that confidence that they'll hire me lar....as for the second interview, it was a total waste of time....shouldn't have gone down at the first place. it was a job agency that i went to, so i wasn't told the job scope and the company and stuffs until i was being interviewed by the agent. the job they're offering is for a jap company setting up an office in singapore. so, basically, the company only has 2 jap bosses and 1 secretary to run the whole show until the company expands. and the 1 secretary would be the job position they're offering and at the pay of $2.6k....goodness lor. i've got to do everything de lar...including my own payroll.. in the end, i rejected their offer to submit my application in. and now, i'm waiting for ntu response. if no response, i'll just continue working till after my wedding bah...don't know yet....

by the way, thanks suling gal, for accompanying me to ntu that day...really sweet of you...hehe...also, i finally saw ho wei yi after 4 yrs larz!!! hahaha....gal ah gal...why you so small size??? =p

oh yah, i've finally gotten our appointment date to select our punggol sapphire flat le!!!! =D so happy~ butz.............dear dear wouldn't be around to select the flat with me....SOBSOB... =( doubt he'll even be able to call me when i'm doing the selection....sigh~ can my dear dear not go???? sobsob...recently he is clearing his leaves and i so want to take leave to be with him too...but i've got to space out my leaves, else, i'll be left with no more leaves by the time he's back...so next week, i'm planning to take half day everyday from tues till fri...hehe...but boss has yet to approve it...haiz...hope it's approved. *prays*

this sunday, we're going bridal studio hunting for HER...hehe...sounds so fun....=p cos i didn't go for bridal studio hunt larz....dear dear was just so plain lazy to scout around with me...but ok lar, i also agreed to it that's why we settled on the first bridal studio we enquired from. =p hehe...so cannot complain...and i'm going to be her bridesmaid if it's permitted!!! hehe....so happy~ =D my 2nd time as bridesmaid....but i can't really remember what i did as a bridesmaid that time, haha...coz it was like super long time ago lar...

oops~ it's almost 10am. better get back to work...shall update when i'm free... =p

morning peepz~ finally manage to find time in the morning to type an entry...
haiz...i wonder why have i been so busy these days in office. even msn has cut down alot alot...i used to be able to msn as many as 4 people at a go...but now, 2 is even hard to catch up. hahaha...

anyway, was reading through my friends' blog...so sorry galz...i also long time never read you galz blogs...at times, i just scan through nia...and i'm guilty of it. apologies....me too have not been meeting up with you galz recently. i promise i'll meet up with you galz real soon. enjoy your holidays for those whom i've heard that are going holiday... =)

today, i'm on half day leave. and i'll be going for 2 interviews....1 at 2.30pm in NTU and another at 5.30pm in shenton way....stress....it's been really long since i last went for an interview. when i was digging out my certs and old files of interviews i went in the past, the papers have all turned yellow lar....goodness~ 4years of service to this company....hmm....i wonder how i could have stayed this long...hahaha...anyway, wish me luck peepz~ =D

i'm back from lunch...since i've got no mood to work, here i am blogging..hehe...=p

went to this duck rice store called Lim Seng Lee Duck Rice Eating House along don't know what road to have lunch...hahahaha....it's located along the sbs bus 200 route...after the turnings behind science park.

heard and read so much about it, we decided to try today. wasn't that bad, the duck is nice with lotsa dark sauce and the duck meat they cut until super thin....and the kang kong tastes like it has crab roe in it lar....nice~

we ordered just a plate of duck and kang kong and 3 cups of ice barley. guess the price...

first thing first, today's yiling's birthday~ happy birthday gal~ =D

i just got a call from JAC recruitment agency for a job application i submitted on wed. will be meeting them for an interview on tuesday after my interview in ntu. yes, 2 interviews in a day...i don't know why, recently, super low morale at work...no mood to work at all despite my workload which has been pretty heavy recently, also don't know why. everyone in the office doesn't seem to be happy about their job either. something is wrong. i really don't know if i should stay back to help out in the company or leave...dilemma....although i've submitted resumes, i'm still kinda hesitant over leaving. afterall, i've been with this company for 4 years. boss isn't that bad, just that i dislike the way things are handled here....part of me want to move on while part of me is telling me to stay on till at least next year. but everyone has been telling me to move on the earlier the better....haizz....if i move on, i really don't know how to tender my resignation. i know i have to face this sooner or later so i hope i'll gather the courage to tender when i really get either of the job.

wish me luck peepz~ =)

shitty shit shit~ my olympus 700 all weather camera is spoilt!!! sob sob~ and dear is leaving soon.....i need a camera to take pics for that day.....arghhhhhh~ this morning i was still taking pics with it and it works perfectly fine larz....next thing i knew, after i took out my memory card to load pics into my com, i on my camera again, the lens seem to be stuck lar......sob~ how sia.....if lens problem, i bet it'll cost alot and if it does, i rather buy new one lar.... =( and if i send for servicing, don't know if can take it back on time anot sia......arghhh.....major problem....and best thing, only saturday then i'll be able to rush down in time to service it lor....

on top of that, just got the news yesterday that iphone will be out in singapore on the 22nd aug which is next friday. i'm happy yet unsure if i should get it now that my camera seems more important.....argh~

how on earth 2 gadgets of mine spoil within this month???? it's only the 13th nia.....goodness

just got back home awhile ago...and i eagerly need a place to rant....

today, i lost my patience...i somehow felt that my tolerance had reach its limit today...and i did the last thing i'll ever do to my love one...i made him lose face in front of his friends...and sad to say, because of the word EGO, he held back his actions and feelings. i just don't understand....why guys have to have such big ego??? do they think that only guys have such big pride and gals doesn't have any??? we gals have our pride too...and they never spare a thought about this part at all...

one more thing, promises are meant to be kept...if not, why on earth do you make promises then??? you said you make sure we're going home after the last "tower", but what happened to that promise??? it was "tower" after "tower".....and due to what??? EGO AGAIN!!!

ensuring that your gf/wife is home, you feel assured and relief....but have you guys thought, that we galz also do needs to be assured that our other half is back home safe and sound??? although i'm tired now, but do you think i can sleep well without you back safely??? haizz....i really don't know what you guys are thinking....

let's say, if it's the other way round. the ones out till this late are the galz and they're half drunk and still persist and proceed to another place for 2nd round. on top of that, tomorrow is a working day, will the guys feel angry and unassured??? also, do take into consideration that you guys are tired and spent time waiting for us galz to finish our round 1 of drinks the whole night. how you guys feel?

haiz Haiz HAIZ......

after writing this entry, i feel much better....had sort things out awhile ago but i just thought i ought to type it down to relieve myself furthermore...

back to my waiting...nite peepz

after slacking my way through, met up with suping in town to go collect the singapore flyers tickets from her auntie since i super bo liao in the hotel...so nice of her to give us free access to sg flyers yesterday....hehe....thanks gal...